closer, closer, come closer
Closer, closer, closer
I was on Twitter, as usual, on an average night, while checking my Facebook account. This is what I found from my Geography’s teacher FB account : SIMAK UI bulan Desember, benarkah?
First normal reaction of someone’s whose devoted her life for SIMAK UI was : Holy shit. I think I’m just gonna die.
Second waves of reaction from someone who can finally get hold on herself : Who cares if SIMAK UI on December? All I have to do is studying harder, harder, and harder. If I study everyday then I won’t have any difficulty even if SIMAK comes on September.
And as my fellow classmates Deilika and Ujang said, “ SIMAK UI itu besok”
So come on, come closer, SIMAK. I’ll take you down.
Actually, there’s a thin line between optimism and arrogancy.I want to be an optimistic person, full of hopes and good expectations, have a self confidence and believe that I’m capable of anything.But if I cross the optimism line, even just a tiny millimeter bit, then I’ll become an arrogant person. Geez.
Question : Why do people choose Science as their major in high school and then totally curve away to Social field when they’re in college? Seriously. No, I’m not gonna forbid any Science student who wants to take Social field (I don’t have rights to forbid anyway), and no I’m not gonna threaten any of them or create a feud between Science and Social.But honestly, I unquestionably think it’s inequitable for Social student. The majorities of Economics Faculty in University of Indonesia are Science student and guess what? They don’t even learn Economy.And who the hell been struggling to learn it? Social kids.
Question : How come you can be trusted when you don’t trust your own knowledge and field? And how come you’re capable when you don’t even have enough confident to choose your own field?
Anyway. Let’s just have a healthy competition, blabbering about this too much only creates a suggestion that Social kids are troubled by Science kids.No, we’re not, we’re not that insecure and vulnerable.We believe in our knowledge, our specialty and we’ve been learning this for 2 years. We should be able to beat the shit out of everyone.Social 2010, let’s conquer our glory.
I just realized that Social fields tend to be a ‘wet’ and ‘dirty’ field.Let’s take an example : Law, Economics, Politics.We gonna have a lot of money, that’s for sure, but that money, is it our allotment? Is it belong to us, do we earn it in a smooth way? Or do we earn it in a ‘smooth’ way?As an adolescence, I’m still an idealist, I keep telling myself that I’m gonna be a trustworthy politician, I want to dedicate my life for the society. But how long I can keep hold on my principle? When my environment is not sustaining my idea?
Gosh.I’m afraid, I’m terrified, scared, I don’t want to be that immoral bastards who takes other people’s money.I don’t want to live luxuriously while out there, there’s people whose dying of poverty and live indigently.
That’s what I’m thinking now. But who knows, 10 years later, when I’m a successful politician or lawyer(amin), I’m gonna turn into a realist.. Becoming realistic sometimes forfeit our own moral.
That’s probably why I should be a writer and a free lance photographer. Hahahah, I wish.
About choosing a faculty for university, I am actually not sure, yet. I am absolutely not interested in Economics, so FE is definitely not an option.I want to be in FISIP but what faculty? Politics or International Relations? International Relations has always been my dream, it’s difficulties and impossibleness makes it even more luring and fascinating.Law is an option that just barely come, mainly from my sister who works in a Law Firm and been telling me about how sweet it is to be a corporate lawyer.But what the hell is corporate lawyer? Law is definitely not my interest, not yet, but it offers a quite bright carreer.And it’ll sounds cool if my name turns into I Gusti Ayu Azarine Kyla Arinta, SH. Hahaha, sounds so fancy.Literature? Well, I’m very interested. Especially in German Literature and English Literature, but what for? Be a translator? Well I love to read books but I certainly do not love to translate it, work as a tour guide? Definitely not gonna work as a tour guide for my main carreer.Is it possible for me to work in German Embassy? I do not know yet.
My friend asked me : what’s your passion?
I answered : writing and taking pictures.but well, I’m not professional, I can’t pursue my carreer in there, there’s so much things I need to think before I choose what I want to be. I want to be someone who has different carreer from the rest of my family.My dad and mom works for an office, good salary, nice facility but no, I can’t picture myself as someone who works in an office with the same routinity every freakin single day.My first sister also works in an office, boring.My second sister is different, she wants to be a chef and now she owns her own catering.She follows her dream but well, she has more downs than ups before she finally own this catering.
I might as well be a journalist, but gosh, I’m very consumptive, I don’t think being a journalist will go along with my lifestyle.It’s not that I’m hedonistic or anything, but I certainly a very consumptive person.
Dude! Life’s hard and then you die. -__-“